I know there’s a lot of space in between posts here. The original intent of this blog was to document my journey from complacent, lukewarm, generic Christian who occasionally goes to church and reads her bible every now and then and prays only when the need arises, to a genuine, all-in Christ follower who only has eyes for Jesus. So much has changed in my life in recent months, and I have to say that I am in a place where I never would have guessed I’d be. I have been faced with life-changing decisions, and having made those decisions, I do wonder what will be the result and where I will end up. I’m scared; I’d be a lying fool if I said I wasn’t. But more than I’m scared, I’m trusting in a God for Whom nothing is too hard. He is bigger than any problem I could possibly find myself with, and He will get me through this, even if it isn’t until I’m on the other side of this life.

My grandmother lived to be almost 100, as do most of my relatives. I remember one of the last conversations I had with her while she was in the nursing home. She was looking at me with a sort of sad smile, and I asked her what she was thinking about. I was probably in my mid-thirties at the time. She told me that no matter how old her body got, her heart still felt like that of a young girl. Her husband, my grandfather, had passed on many years earlier, but she missed him every day. My great-aunt (my grandmother's sister) and great-uncle passed away within days of each other. They had been married for more than 60 years and they were constantly together. When she died, he said that he just didn't have enough time with her. And then he went too. I want to be the cherished wife whose husband could never get enough time with her. Perhaps one day.

I was sent this video via e-mail today and I usually delete these
because I don't want to take the time out of my 'busy' day to watch. But for
some reason, I watched this one and tears came to my eyes. I don't know if it
was because it was so touching, or because it made me realize what a quitter I
really am sometimes. Anyhoo, watch if you have 3 minutes and 15 seconds to
spare.

"Risk more than others think is safe. Care more than others think is wise. Dream more than others think is practical. Expect more than others think is possible."  Claude T. Bissell